boredom

duk sorg2 tnpa buat apa2?

i will be da most killer bored mood..
aku jadi teringat kat satu kisah dulu..
sumone had ask me, let it be L and me:

L: apa gunanya mesej selalu?
me: huh?
L: mesej ni sekadar isi kebosaanan je kan? sbb tu rasa bosan giler kalau xmesej..

aku terdiam.. aku pikir.. ada btol jugak katanya..
yes i admit i'll be bored person if nothing i can do at all..
but.. salah ke klu aku nk tau?
i wanna know about u all da time.. but i know u need ur personal time..
aku berfikir lagi dan lagi.. beri masa pd otakku utk mencerna mklumt dr hati dan mulut..
lantas! otakku mengeluarkan satu persoalan..

"if it is true, that all this while im messaging just to varnish my boredom, is my feeling towards u are pure and real?"

dan dr situ timbul lagi persoalan lain..

"how if one day, u r gone to nowhere.. n how about me?"

aku tak risau pasal itu..
coz i know i can do it!
dan lagi..

"if i really survive without any pain in my heart, thats mean there is no 'feeling' between us actually.. is it true? do u feel the same way too?"

this what i've been worry..
mcmne klu kami hanya membazir? dan lagi mcmne plak klu dy pun xrasa pape? langsung!
i mean no lesson for us at all?? huh!
xsekelumit pun ke? ataupun sebenarnya mmg perasaan itu xpnah dtg kpd kami..
im scared to death thinking of this
akhir sekali..

"if all of this are true.. what is love actually?"

psst..psst: what is love actually?